Created Inadequate

I am always chagrined when I hear my friends talking about the things they tell their children to prepare them for life ... usually because I didn't tell my children those things and it would have been really good if I had.

So I'm continully bumping into my lack of "concreteness"; I'm continully bumping into the limits of "abstractness". Abstract parents are skimpy when it comes to giving their children practical advice.

So I feel the panic rise when I come face to face with my inadequacies. And then I "self soothe"; then I do for me what I would do for others. I comfort, I soothe.

I tell myself, "You're right - it really would have been better had you been better in that area. (I agree with my enemy.) But this is what it means to be interconnected. You now need others to give what you could not give to your children. We were made to be whole only in the context of others. This is what that truth feels like."

So I take a deep breath, release a sigh of relief and go my merry way, (almost).