Good Idols

I was marveling at my entrenched resistance to self-help-anything in my younger years.  As I teased out the belief behind such adamancy, what surfaced was that my most valued virtue was Genuineness. To the young, that means anything that is perceived as being manipulated or contrived or pretended is dismissed summarily.

I had to be "me", whoever that was. So that would mean repeating Affirmations such as "I now affirm that I accept uncertainty and ambiguity" would have been a lie. I didn't believe that and so if I repeated it, I would have been lying.

What I didn't realize was the Genuineness I felt such loyalty to, was a reality I had already created and fed back to myself as ... reality. My grid had already distorted what was. What I didn't know was that if that distortion wasn't working for me, by all means, "redistort" it! By all means, be proactive and aggressive in changing your "you"!

But in my world, Genuine was king. You might even say that Genuine was an idol. All reality had to bow to my version of Genuine. And you know what happens to idols.

It is the good idols that are the last to fall.