Gift of Hell

The first hell I had to learn to conquer and neutralize lasted 30 years. The next hell lasted 10 years. I expect the next hell to last 3 years and the final one will last 1 year. Because my arsenal  and my skill set keeps growing and growing, there will soon be no set of circumstances that I will experience as "hellish".

And what will be the pay off? What will be the reward for all my hard work? What will be the gift of all these hells?

Learning that indeed, "Nothing outside of you can ever give you what you are looking for." The gift of hell is learning how to come home to me; learning that I am the treasure; learning that I am the reward. How can it be otherwise?