Mud Puddley Time

I have never allowed myself to live as though there is no future. But I have allowed myself to do that this fall. I have given myself permission to pause, knowing that in the spring, I will go in a different direction - sorta like a door on a hinge.

So one of the ways I've been "pausing" is by watching TV whenever I want to - I'm watching all the old programs from centuries ago - like "Malcolm in the Middle". And I never feel so sane (or insane) as I do after I watch their shenanigans. (God, I love those kids!)

All that to say, you'd be amazed at how my spirit has turned to mush - and so fast! Whenever I ask myself, "what is in your spirit?" there is silence - there is nothing there! I guess I never realized to what degree I had input into what was in my spirit.

I probably won't stay here - but there is nothing wrong with visiting. If we are walking down the sidewalk with Jesus, He lets us pause and play in mud puddles every once in a while.