Own the Yuck

My reality assumes there are certain people that don't especially like me (imagine that!). And even though the odds are such that that is true, I think there is a truer truth that is more helpful to me. The truer truth is that I take those parts of me that I don't like and give them to the people I assume don't like me. I don't know which happens first - I don't like them and then I give them the parts of me I don't want to claim or I give them the parts of me I don't want to claim and then I don't like them. Sorta like the Scape Goat Phenomena - give the poor animal your sins and then send him off into the desert to die.

So I often border on the flippant (which slides into a Knowitall - did you notice, I'm still trying not to own it by camouflaging the spelling?). I put the thought in their heads, "She's a Knowitall" and I have them rejecting me and that is how I go about handling the parts of me I don't like.

What to do? I suggest to myself not to shy away from these people because the odds are, this is my finaglings. I suggest to myself that it is okay to not want to Own the Yuck, but I might want to Own the Yuck anyway.